Slouched, slumped, bundled
Soaked, dripping wet
Beads of tears and sweat,
A sticky stench clinging to me.
Violent cries hushed to silent wails
As they chocked on my throat,
Squeezing out through my clenched teeth.
I lay a shattered figurine.
Long hours passed before,
The tears dried up,
Lungs welled up,
I slowly stood up.
The mirror, cold blooded;
Staring; with impassive savagery.
Its callous cavernous eyes,
Stripping me with ruthless repugnance.
Bare, battered, and broken,
I say to myself
A yelp within.
Can’t let them see!
Can’t let them know!”
Lips stretched – ear to ear, with a steady shiver
Teeth blared – pale fear beneath a fake sneer
Hairs were brushed and cheeks were wiped
And a silent blurt,
“This is happiness”,
I coaxed a farce through my head
And put a bullet through my skull.